Raja Kumbang. My Theories, Thoughts and Practicalities…


Anti-Drugs Rockfest
May 26, 2008, 1:14 am
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Anti-Drugs Rockfest at Choa Chu Kang CC!

Featuring various bands from the Choa Chu Kang constituency performing rock favourites (Deep Purple, Rainbow, Dio, Whitesnake, etc..) from the 70’s, 80’s and 90’s!

Win in the lucky draw segment!

Tickets at only $3.00 !!! Selling out really fast! Only 20 tickets left!

Contact Pitt at 82002656 or just come on down at “The Bunker” (Basement CD Shelter) @ Choa Chu Kang CC on Saturday, 31st May 2008, 4pm onwards!

Anti-Drugs Rockfest

Chua Chu Kang CC

Live Music Club

Presents

ANTI-DRUGS ROCKFEST

4.00pm Opening Speech from Club Mentor, Band Director Cikgu Johari

4.05pm Opening performance by FREEWAY

(Still Loving You, Meniti Titian Usang, Peronda Jaket Biru, The Price, Musnah, So Lonely)

4.30pm Performance by FATAL

(Musibah, Anjakan Paradigma, Satu Kenangan, Knockin’ On Heaven’s Door, Holy Diver)

5.00pm Performance by BAD BOYS BOOGIE

(Raja Kumbang, Semangat Lamina, Teman, The Shed, I Turn To Stone, Dajjal, Lady of The Lake)

6.00pm Performance by STARGAZERS

(Fool for your loving, Since you been gone, Smoke on the water, Black Night, 2 Minutes to Midnight)

6.30pm Performance by HEAVEN

(Killing the Dragon, Perry Mason, Over the Mountain, Bark At The Moon, Stand Up and Shout, Tom Sawyer)

7.15pm BREAK

7.30pm Performance by FALLEN ANGEL

(Stormbringer, Stargazer, Spotlight Kid, 18 and Life, Inside Looking Out, Dr Stein, Kamalia)

8.15pm Tribute to RUSTY BLADE, featuring all bands.

9.00pm LUCKY DRAW

9.15pm END

*Timings and songs played are subject to change



Folklore folks.
May 9, 2008, 10:13 am
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I was thinking about divinity the other day.

About God.

I was think about mortality.

And Immortality.

Of human beings, and other beings.

Is there any other sentient life-forms other than us humans? Aliens maybe?

How about supernatural folk?

From the Holy Qur’an, it is understood that there are two races, humans and the Djinn. Among muslims, this is undisputed and wholly accepted as fact.

In the Malay culture (which is strongly imbued with Muslim perceptions and traditions), it is believed that spirits and ghosts (called jembalang and hantu respectively) are part of the Djinn race.

As man is made from earth, the Djinns are made of fire. They have no corporeal (material plane) form such as us, but do sometimes have the ability to transgress into our dimension and influence it physically and/or psychically.

Why am I talking about this?

Hey, it’s my blog, I’ll write what I want.

I have this Irish friend called Brian (can’t seem to find him any more. Maybe he went back to Ireland). We used to talk about a whole lot of stuff. Football. Rugby. Fighting. Girls.

One day, the topic of the supernatural came up and we saw that in both our cultures, their is a fair amount of common ground on this topic.

Which kind of crept us out.

But here’s some stuff on what we found are similar.

Common Folk

In the Malay culture, all manner of supernatural folk fall under the category of Djinns. In the Irish culture, all manner of supernatural folk fall under the category of Faerie (or Sidhe, pronounced shee)

The Pontianak and the Banshee

The most infamous character among the supernatural folk in the Malay culture is the pontianak.

From wikipedia:

A Pontianak or Kuntilanak or Matianak (as known in Indonesia, sometimes shortened to just kunti) is a type of vampire in Malay folklore, similar to the Langsuir. The pontianak is usually a woman who died during childbirth and becomes undead, seeking revenge and terrorizing villages.

In folklore, Pontianak often appears as a beautiful and at times seductive woman, usually accompanied by the strong scent of frangipani. According to myth, men who are not wary will be killed or castrated when she morphs into a hideous being; she will also eat babies and harm pregnant women and has been said to cause miscarriages.

People believe that having a sharp object like a nail helps them fend off potential attacks by pontianaks, the nail being used to plunge a hole at the back of the pontianak’s neck. It is believed that when a nail is plunged into the back of a pontianak’s neck, she will turn into a beautiful woman, until the nail is pulled off again. The Indonesian twist on this is plunging the nail into the apex of the head of the kuntilanak.

Pontianak is associated with banana trees, and its spirit is said to reside in them during the day.

Langsuir is a version of pontianak, popular in Malaysia as one of the deadliest banshees in Malay folklore. Different from a pontianak, which always appeared as a beautiful woman to devour the victim, langsuir would possess the victim and suck blood from the inside, slowly causing a fatal end. It is believed that langsuir are from women who had laboring sickness (meroyan) as a result of suffering the death of their children and who themselves died afterwards. Portrayed as hideous, scary, vengeful and furious, the Langsuir is further characterized as having red eyes, sharp claws, long hair, a green or white robe (most of the time), a rotten face and long fangs. These are the common images described by people who claimed to have seen one. Pontianaks are sometimes claimed to be the still-born children of langsuir.

The most infamous character among the supernatural folk in the Irish culture is the banshee.
From wikipedia:

In Irish legend, a banshee wails around a house if someone in the house is about to die. There are particular families who are believed to have Banshees attached to them, and whose cries herald the death of a member of that family. Traditionally, when a citizen of an Irish village died, a woman would sing a lament (in Irish: caoineadh, [ˈkiːnʲə] or [ˈkiːnʲuː], “caoin” meaning “to weep, to wail”) at their funeral. These women singers are sometimes referred to as “keeners” and the best keeners would be in much in demand. Legend has it that, for five great Gaelic families: the O’Gradys, the O’Neills, the O’Briens, the O’Connors, and the Kavanaghs, the lament would be sung by a fairy woman; having foresight, she would sing the lament when a family member died, even if the person had died far away and news of their death had not yet come, so that the wailing of the banshee was the first warning the household had of the death.

In later versions the banshee might appear before the death and warn the family by wailing. When several banshees appeared at once, it indicated the death of someone great or holy.[2] The tales sometimes recounted that the woman, though called a fairy, was a ghost, often of a specific murdered woman, or a woman who died in childbirth.[3]

Banshees are frequently described as dressed in white or grey, and often having long, fair hair which they brush with a silver comb, a detail scholar Patricia Lysaght attributes to confusion with local mermaid myths. This comb detail is also related to the centuries-old traditional romantic Irish story that, if you ever see a comb lying on the ground in Ireland, you must never pick it up, or the banshees (or mermaids – stories vary), having placed it there to lure unsuspecting humans, will spirit such gullible humans away. Other stories portray banshees as dressed in green, red or black with a grey cloak.

The thing these two have in common would be that both usually wear white. The banshee may only wail, but the pontianak, she wails and laughs. And shrieks. And calls out your name. While the pontianak is often referred to as the malay vampire, I think it is more similar to the banshee. Brian (his surname is O’Connor, by the way) told me that if you see a banshee in the mirror with hollow eyes crying tears of blood, that means somebody is gonna die soon. I told him if you see a potianak with hollow eyes grinning with saliva strings of blood, you gotta run cos maybe you’re gonna die soon.

There are actually a lot more similarities in folklore between the two cultures. Too much for me to write here. I might as well write a research paper on this. I believe that there’s something to it. It’s just gotta be more than coincidence. I really want to do more research on it, but.. if only somebody would pay me to. Hmm..



Men die younger..
April 24, 2008, 3:40 pm
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Scientists have proven that statistically, men die younger.

Is it because guys work harder?

Or we stress ourselves too much? Much more that womenfolk do?

What is your take?

I offer a few reasons in the photos below (taken somewhere off the net).

Hope this gives you some insight into the matter.


Well, I guess that proves it.

Men only have balls so women can pull it around any which way they want.

Eyeballs, that is….

quote of the day:

“If you always put limit on everything you do, physical or anything else. It will spread into your work and into your life. There are no limits. There are only plateaus, and you must not stay there, you must go beyond them.” (Bruce Lee)



Raja Kumbang
April 21, 2008, 3:41 pm
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Some people asked me why I’m called “Raja Kumbang”.

Well, if you know the song, and you know me intimately, maybe you’ll have an idea why.

Hei jangan cuba-cuba = Hey, dont even try

Bermain cinta denganku = Playing games of love with me

Oh aku Raja Kumbang = Oh, I am the Beetle King

Itu nama samaranku = That is my nickname

Jangan cuba menekan diriku = Don’t try to push me

Untuk kepuasanmu = For your own satisfaction

Hidupku selalu berkelana = My life is always a-wandering

Mencari bahagia = Searching for happiness

Oh hidup bagaikan burung = Oh, life is like a bird

Tersiksa dalam sangkarnya = Tortured in its cage

Oh lebih baik hidup = Oh, it is better to live

Bagaikan kumbang yang merdeka = just like a bettle that is free

Cinta bagiku hanyalah seperti debu = Love to me is only just like dust

Pasti hilang bersama angin yang lalu = Will definitely disappear with the passing breeze

thought of the day:-

HEAVEN & HELL

The old monk sat by the side of the road. With his eyes closed, his legs crossed and his hands folded in his lap, he sat. In deep meditation he sat.

Suddenly his zazen was interrupted by the harsh and demanding voice of a samurai warrior. “Old man! Teach me about heaven and hell!”

At first, as though he had not heard, there was no perceptible response from the monk. But gradually he began to open his eyes, the faintest hint of a smile playing around the corners of his mouth as the samurai stood there, waiting impatiently, growing more and more agitated with each passing second.

“You wish to know the secrets of heaven and hell?” replied the monk at last. “You who are so unkempt. You whose hands and feet are covered with dirt. You whose hair is uncombed, whose breath is foul, whose sword is all rusty and neglected. You who are ugly and whose mother dresses you funny. You would ask me of heaven and hell?”

The samurai uttered a vile curse. He drew his sword and raised it high over his head. His face turned to crimson, and the veins of his neck stood out in bold relief as he prepared to sever the monk’s head from its shoulders.

“That is hell,” said the old monk gently, just as the sword began its descent.

In that fraction of a second, the samurai was overcome with amazement, awe, compassion and love for this gentle being who had dared to risk his very life to give him such a teaching. He stopped his sword in mid-flight and his eyes filled with grateful tears.

“And that,” said the monk, “is heaven.”

(From A Third Serving of Chicken Soup for the Soul, by Jack Canfield and Mark Victor Hansen. Published by Health Communications, Deerfield Beach, Florida.)



Coming outta nowhere…
April 12, 2008, 2:16 pm
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Tonight I’ll be playing with my project band, Shallow Blue at Top 5.

Not that I’m not psyched about it, I am, but I’m just frikkin’ tired and exhausted.

Wise chinese sage says: Man who runs in front of car get tired, man who run behind car get exhausted.

Guess where I was..

Anyway, yesterday Azhar and I went to accompany Boy S (Nakalistik/ Still Here 17/ Crazy Doctors) , Mamat Skodeng, Fit (Crazy Doctors) and Fran (Awie punya orang kuat) for their jamming session, which lasted until the wee hours of the morning. They’re playing under the moniker “Dubious”. I only had like a few hours of sleep. Gotta wake up early and refresh my memory. I don’t want to stumble over the lyrics.

We’re the second band up. First is Silver Tears fronted by Ace. After us is Terabo (yes, the same Terabo that is in the top 20 for Anugerah Band) then Dubious.

We’re just the openers.

The main event’s line up is Jatt Ali, Faizal (House of Rock), Hanafie Warren and Awie Wings.

Oh, did I mention that Alias Kadir will be singing too?

Should be a blast, though.

Let’s Rock!

Thought of the day:-

God don’t give a man more than he can take



You know we’ve got no time..
April 11, 2008, 11:24 am
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I don’t have much time for much of a post.

Gotta go out soon, it’ll be a busy day today. Tomorrow too.

Cos tomorrow I’ll be playing at Top5 at Orchard Towers, with the band, Shallow Blue, which is just me, Jas (my neighbor from upstairs), Amin (my neighbor from the next block) and AoD (neighbor from 2 blocks away).

Our slot is aroud 7pm. There’ll be around 4 bands playing 3 songs each. After that is the main event, which is Awie, Hanafi Warren and a few local artists. Mostly everyone will be playing 70’s rock classics, cos it’s the theme of the day.

As for us, we’ll be playing Burn by Deep Purple, Starstruck by Rainbow and Medicine Man by Whitesnake. Rock Steady by Bad Company on standby.

Gotta move!

Rock On.

here’s a thought:-

Life ain’t got no meaning….

Till ya give it some…



Schmuck.
April 9, 2008, 1:46 am
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Someone asked me about life and what’s the meaning of life. So I said:

Life is a series of situations, transcending from one to another, regardless of direction.
We are always in a state of transition. Even if it’s in a circle, it is always in motion.

Like a river, always in a constant state of flux.

Like a river which ultimately ends in a calm lake or joined to the sea, such is our lives, a journey meandering, pushing forth, urging on, stumbling over rocky circumstances, dammed up and held in check, sluicing along like little rivulets, spilling our essence here and there.

All in pursuit of the ultimate goal.

Water.
Everywhere.
Wide and vast yet still and calm.
Light of the sun bounces of it’s shimmering surface.
A warm breeze stirs up gentle little waves.

Peace.

With oneself? Or with the world and everyone in it? What is one’s choice?
Methinks, it is up to each one of us, to decide for ourselves.

That didn’t actually answer the question, but I like to think that it gives a different perspective on life.

My band didn’t make it thru the second round of Anugerah Band. Well, as malays say, rezki masing-masing (to each his own, in a sense). There were a whole lotta great bands, most of them rockers (rock melayu habis) but only 20 outta 68 got thru to the next round. Too bad my band NV didn’t make it. Guess we weren’t rock enough. Cucu Datuk Merah did make it though. Rock on, CDM! Gua support, lah!

Anyway, I’m thinking of starting a new blog. No, not for ramblings, rantings or ruminations.

It will have a more… practical approach.

I got to thinking the other day, about being married, having kids and all that schmuck. Then I got to thinking about how I would try to support my family, financial concerns and safety and all that.

When I have kids, I’m gonna teach ‘em some self-defence, or martial arts, whichever their preference. I don’t really believe in most of the commercial stuff in the market. Having been thru quite a few of what they sell as “martial arts” here and going thru rough spots in life and perilous situations, a lotta what they sell don’t really work or even stand the first hit. So I’m thinking, hey I gotta dump all I know right now somewhere, in case I get too old to remember ‘em and impart ‘em on my kids. So I thought, hey, why not a blog, right?

Yeah, good idea, but I need someone to assist me in taking the pictures for the techniques though. Also need someone to pose the moves with. Aiyoh.. so troublesome.

Thought of the day:-

Family isn’t measured in quantity, but quality.



Intelligence. Character. Tilde.
April 2, 2008, 10:44 pm
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Intelligence and character – that is true education.

Talking about character, did you know that the malay slang term “kerek” (which means stuck up) was actually derived from the term “character”?

Hmm… what other words are there?

Obit (pronounced awe-bit): defined as weird or not normal, out of the ordinary; I.e, a person wearing a black tuxedo with neon green shoes. Derived from the term “off-beat”

Gohed (pronounced go-head): to go forward especially when driving. From the english term “go ahead”.

Gostan (pronounced go-stun): to reverse especially when driving. From the engilsh term “go astern”.

Gerek (pronounced gay-rake): A bastardisation of the word “great”. Used in the same way as it holds the same meaning (i.e, Sarah’s dancing is gerek!) but it has connotations of wanting to participate and feeling enthused.

Shoik (pronounced shock): An equivalent of “gerek” but is usually used to express extreme satisfaction especially with regards to food and other pleasures. Derived from the word “shock”, but has no relative correlation with its actual definition.

Spoting (pronounced s-paw-TING): A bastardisation of the word “sporting”. Used in the same way as it holds the same meaning but it has connotations of open-mindedness and disregard to norms and authorities.

A recent addition to the malay slang repertoire is the term “kon”.

Kon (pronounced cawn): defined as cheating, to lie, but with good intentions; i.e. Telling mom that you’re at a friend’s place when you’re actually helping your girlfriend with her maths homework. Derived from the term “connive”.

Those are just a fe of the malay vernacular that I could write off the top of my head just this moment. There’s a lot more, but I’m too lazy to think about them.

Just finished practicing with my band just now. We’re getting pumped up for the 2nd round of Anugerah Band this Sunday.

Wish us luck.

Wish I was rich. Haha~

Oh, in case you don’t know, the “~” sign is called a “tilde” (Say TILL-DAY. Visit http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tilde to know what it is).

On your keyboard, it’s the key to the left of number 1.

No, not the one on the right, the left one. To the left.

To the left to the left. All your things in a box to the left…

Thought of the day:- It is each man’s life to rise or fall to his challenges



Watery Fate. Shit Happens.
April 1, 2008, 2:59 am
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Had a few hours practice just now with the band.

Fun song to play, even though it’s cut short to just 3 min (to fit the maximum time allocated for the competition).

An original composition by Raffi.

Ever wondered why your life is the way it is?

Is there such a thing as fate? Is your life already set in stone, or is it like the flow of a river, which can meander and be redirected, or dammed up and stored.

I think it’s a bit of both.

Take the river analogy for example.

Sure you can change the direction, dam it up, split it of join multiple rivulets into a bigger river or lake, but there are principles that you need to follow.

1: Water flows from a higher point to a lower point.

Ever heard about a river that ran up a hill or mountain? Yeah? Neither did I.

Some things in life, especially yours, can’t be changed. You can’t bring back a dead person. You can’t change who your parents are, or make your past a happier or more eventful one. You have to take it all in and move on. Like water does. You just can’t swim back upstream and start again on a different path.

2: Water follows the path of least resistance.

Ever seen water drill thru a big rock a river? Didn’t think so. Why waste time when you can go around it? It’s like politely asking n elephant to step aside so you can pass, which is kinda dumb if you could just walk a few paces to the side and carry on.

Though it may be possible to bore a hole thru the above-mentioned metaphorical rock, one has to admit, it will definitely take a much longer time than taking the simple (and more logical) route. That’s something most people nowadays forget.

3: Water goes with the flow.

Like… duh…

Not neccessarily following the masses, but if almost everyone is running away from a 200 feet tall reptile in the middle of town, should you do any different? Or if everyone is picking up gold nuggets from your local monsoon drain to sell to dealers for wads of cash, would you do any different? It’s not about groupthink or mob-mindset or stuff like that, but never understimate the masses. And it’s also not a good idea to go up against them. Picture a KKK activist in full white regalia right smack in the front stage area during a 50cent concert. You’ll get the idea.

So.. what about life?

It’s like that.

Shit happens.

Shit always happen.

Shit always happen for a reason.

But we don’t really know what it is.

Picture this:

You’re on a road (metaphorically, it’s your path in life), it’s your road, maybe yours alone or one you share with another or a few people in life. Suddenly you find a pile of shit in front of you, blocking your way and rendering you unable to move forward. Sometimes you can sidestep it. Sometimes you can go over it, or even under it. Maybe even heap some dirt over it to cover it up so you could walk over it (ewww..), but let’s say that in this instance, you can’t do all of those things.

So what do you do?

Let’s ruminate..

When shit happens, you need to remove it. You can’t just stay put and contemplate on whether what you’re looking at is shit or is not-shit. You need to identify the shit.

If it’s really shit, then you need to remove the shit, but you can’t just pick it up with your bare hands so you need the tools, proper ones, to remove the shit.

Before you even use the shit removing tools, you need to learn how to use the shit removing tools.

Once you’ve already done that, then you can proceed with the removing of the shit.

Then you can carry on with your life.

Shit = Problems, difficulties, troubles, doubts, etc..

shit removing tools = Logical reasoning, rational procedures, relevant methods, result specific and consequentially defined approach.

thought of the day:-

Shit Happens.



What?
March 30, 2008, 11:59 pm
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My band got thru to the second round of Anugerah band.

Like… yaaay and all that, but I’m still very much concerned.

Not about the competition. I don’t give a hoot if we win or lose. We joined cos we just wanted to give it a try.

I’m more concerned about surviving.

I don’t have a solid, proper job. It also looks like currently I don’t have a solid career path either.

Why not a career in music, you ask?

Yeah, why not? But can you picture a 55year old man still pumping out beats and riffs to support his family?

It’s.. kinda hard to envision.

I’m still thinking about what I want to do, and what I need to do.

Hmmm…

Anyway, back to the anugerah band competition. I went back there again with my friends Ace (from the band Silver Tears who also happens to have got thru the 1st round), Hafeez (my band’s drummer) and also Amin (my project band buddy).

We got to see lotsa godawful bands. Also lotsa good ones!

I especially had much respect for the band “Cucu Datuk Merah” (Cucu=grandchild/grandchildren, Datuk=Grandfather/Sir/Baron, Merah=Red. So it’s roughly translated as Grandchildren of the Red Baron/Grandfather. Whatever that’s supposed to mean) when they played their own rendition of “Ini Rindu” (original artiste: Jamal Mirdad).

Man they rocked that song out!

Anis the bassist (who actually plays at House of Rock. Damn, he’s good.) was grooving and shaking his butt like he’s getting bitten my thousands of fire ants. Very, very entertaining. The vocalist was quite interactive too. You should have been there to really appreciate it.

As my good chum Hafeez would say… Marvellous!!

As for me.. I have another word.

FANTASTIC!

thought of the day:-

Do we really need what we want?

Do we really want what we need?

Do we know what we need, and what we want? Am I confusing you?



Anugerah Band & The Pretty Ones.
March 28, 2008, 4:11 pm
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My band’s joining this local band competition called “Anugerah Band”. Registration is tomorrow from 9am to 3pm at Bishan, Junction 8. Yeah, finally a competition that NV (my band. Visit our site at http://www.reverbnation.com/nvband ) can enter ‘cos it’s open to all, including recording artistes (of which, we are). The audition is also tomorrow, but it’s stretched out to a period of 2 days (29-30 March) . It’s kinda weird, cos the registration’s just on one day, and you may be expected to audition during that day itself, but if you aren’t (maybe they tell you that your audition slot is the next day or after), then you just came down with all your band-mates, all made up and ready to rock, or rap, or sing or whatever your preference is, for nothing. Well, not really for nothing, at least you got registered. Still, you lot are gonna look like fools. Hope we don’t suffer that unfortunate fate. Still, a friend told me something noteworthy; Be cool, be professional, and most of all, be humble.

We’re gonna see lotsa familiar faces there. And a heck of a lot more unfamiliar ones.

I just wanna see the pretty ones.

What’s wrong with the not-so-pretty ones?

Well… nothing.

I just like the pretty ones. I subscribe to this age old adage, “You’ll always want what you can’t get”.

I definitely couldn’t get any of the pretty ones. No harm looking. Definitely no harm wanting, and knowing that you can’t get it just makes it all the more harmless.

So, you do the math.

thought of the day: Know what you want.

Sometimes, it’s just stuff that you can’t get.

So get you shit together, dirtbag!



Hello world!
March 27, 2008, 4:40 am
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Kinda ironic.

I’ve got this poem, titled “Hello World” and the first post on this blog is “Hello World!”. I mean, it’s an automated post, it was there even before I posted my 1st post.

That kinda bites. I say that the blogger should have the right to the 1st post, not some automated script or program.

Oh well. Shit happens.

Here’s the poem.

Hello World (Part 1)

Twenty five years
in a room with three walls
Iron bars for a door
and a window that can enthrallI peep through it
beyond the barrier I could see
Another world, wonderful, unknown
I will reach it soon
It awaits me when I am freeIn my dreams there are rivers blue
And mountains so high they poke through
the clouds that graze enthralling sky
Beauty, remembered, reminiscent
I sighWhile it draws near
I wonder
What has changed, between now and then?
Will I fit in?
With the crowd can I blend?The time is nigh, freedom beckons
That which awaits me
all that I yearned to see
I will witness in a few seconds

Giant metal doors
Open just for me
Hello world
Long time no see

Copyright ©2004 Asfi Kay

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thought of the day –

Fact: Life sucks.

Fact: When something sucks, it creates a vacuum.

Fact: A vacuum contains absolutely nothing.

Therefore; life is absolutely nothing.

think about it.